when faith meets fear

i have many fears.

let me restate that; i have many outrageous fears.

i have a fear of ants. a fear of a car accidents. a fear of risk. a fear of small spaces. so many fears. too many to count.

why do i have these fears? because i overthink absolutely EVERYTHING. my mother drives out the driveway and i don't hear from her for two hours, and a list of every single thing that could possibly have gone wrong goes running through my head. i turn on an electric blanket and bad thoughts go running through my head. i am the definition of safe.

but what is life if its all just safe? 

i went on school camp a couple of weeks back, and i strongly dislike sharks. coincidentally, this camp was situated by a beach. and that meant surfing. it took overcoming a fear to step into that water with a surfboard. and you know what? i actually did pretty well. i have continuously been challenging myself to step out of my comfort zone and tackle a fear. whenever i feel afraid, i send a prayer up to God asking him to protect me and my loved ones, and he is so amazing and so loving and he promises to never let harm in reach of me and my family and loved ones. sure, i may get a few grazes here and there from falling of a ripstik, but who cares? at least that graze isn't a broken bone or a concussion. 

God has been so good to me. sure, i may have heaps of fears and do risk assessments for absolutely everything, but why should i? i have no reason to because God has continuously protected me and kept me safe. it takes a leap of faith to do something that scares you, but the realization that comes afterwards when you know that God has kept you safe is breathtaking. He loves us so much and it just amazes me on how much he can love one person. our God is purely amazing. 

sure, i might have fears. but i also have faith. and my faith in God overthrows all fears. and yours can too. 

love,

miss h